Sunday Slimdown with Bloggest Loser 2.2

I've given up pop for the most part. Have snuck a few a couple of days lately but mostly I've switched entirely to tea.

I'm trying to walk 10,000 steps a day but honestly I only accomplished that one day and that was yesterday when we took the kids to an aquarium.

Although I've already gotten more than half that many today so yippee me!

I guess the best news is - I'm down a few pounds.

Sorry

It's been a hard week. Harder weekend. Some "bad" things happened here.

Someone - some bad someone - someone we don't know came on our property and stole our camper (travel trailer). Someone stole from us, took something we loved and cared for deeply, that accompanied us on all our family trips the last two years, that cost a fair amount of change, that was the first brand new vehicle type thing I'd ever bought on my own.

Perhaps more importantly they stole my false sense of security. Someone stole my older children's ability to sleep nightmare free. Getting them to actually fall asleep is ridiculous. Every noise is the "bad man coming back" to them. I feel so violated.

We feel violated. And with police reports to fill out, and investigations going on, on multiple conversations with various officers and talks with insurance and talks of installing security what nots I've quickly become overwhelmed and totally forgot about the weight loss update. I'll come back tomorrow with some good news on that front.

Yesterday - Predictable

I fell off the wagon. It was just really stressful for a lot of reasons I can't fully express here, now, at least not yet, and so I feasted on a piece of pie to make me feel better.

Thing is, it didn't really make me feel better, not because I beat myself up about it, because, I totally didn't. But because it just made me feel crummy.

Or it could have just been a coincidence since my stomach is hurting me today also, and I've barely ate all day (a little bit of egg...no pop, just unsweetened iced tea).

So, the good thing is I'm back on, and while that pie was totally off the charts it was good going down and probably didn't really do me that much damage since I'm back on track (at least thinking right since I'm doing nothing drastic here).

Hope everyone else had a good Monday. Off too finish my Tuesday.

Sunday Slimdown with Bloggest Loser 0.1

Which isn't really a week for me, since I only joined two days ago.

So, today I weighed: 221
Which is exactly what I weighed two days ago, so I'm not going to bother with the re-measurements.

Today, I had a doughnut for breakfast (I know I know, it's just I was late getting up, late getting ready for church, late getting to church, we had to work nursery at church today so we had to be there early, so I was late for getting to church early so I just ate at church, which they have doughnut).

For lunch I had another baked potato, if you can't tell I like quick and easy and live close to a Wendy's.

For Dinner I had two biscuits and sorghum.

I know I know, I'm not too good at this am I.

BUT, I did cut it down to only two dr Pepper and drank two large bottles of water. Which is a huge step for me because I LURVE Dr PEPPER!!!!

I haven't taken a walk today, but I did go to Aldi's and walk around there. I've also went up and down the stairs 7 extra times for laundry and will be doing it several more times before bed (4 more loads).

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Today I found out a great friend of mines mother, who's been battling breast cancer for several years now, is losing her battle. Quickly. Hospice is involved. Her cancer has metastasized to her brain. Also elsewhere.

I've been sick. I love this girl - and her mother was an inspiration, someone I'm so blessed to have known. It's just so hard to believe. My friend has little boys who need their Gran, probably just about as much as my friend needs her mother.

Letting go - it's so hard.

I know, I know she's going to a better place and yada and whatever and...I'm so glad. I am. But with my own experience, I know too well, when one you love so much goes to that better place, it doesn't feel good. In fact it rips the skin right off your heart and leaves you forever changed. Not to mention what the whole process, however it happens, does to the family.

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If you can find the time...Pray for Marti and her mama Paula. Thanks

Day One:

Since this day be speak like a scurvy pirate day, (be it? seriously? thar be such a day?) I figured I'd message like a scurvy pirate.

So, day one: fer breakfast...eh didn't have breakfast. fer midday meal, I had a baked potato wit' fat free sour cream. From then I had fried fish dinner, but only a wee wee bit since I shared one plate wit' four people. Then I had another baked potato wit' sour cream. Thinkin' 'bout now finishin' me day wit' reduced fat peanut butter sandwich. Which got to get rid 'o 'tis bedtime snack, but heh, not this day.

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I should be nice and link where I got this from right? I know, but I'm too tired so google speak like a pirate, or message like a pirate, or something and you'll find it. I did.

Blaming the fat on...

Me.

Not because my parents let me eat at McDonnalds when I was little.
Not because they didn't encourage me to eat less.
Not because they always made sweets assessable.

Not because I spent most of my teenage years DEPRESSED.
Not because food was my best friend, hell sometimes it was my only friend.
Not because of my genes.
Not because of kids.
Not because of tragedy's that have happened to me and my family.

No, just because I ate more than I should have.
Because I never workout.
Because I sit too much.

I didn't just get fat.
I let myself get fat.

Now, I'm going to have to make myself get thinner.

Don't get me wrong I DON'T have any stupid ideas of being thin.

I've lost 92 pounds in the past (used to weigh a great deal more 300+).
I know it doesn't really change anything but the clothes you can wear and how comfortable you are on a roller coaster.

I know it wont magically make all my problems go away.

But I also know I'll feel better. And to me, to me and these kids. That makes it worth it.

Obsessed with the scale. (updated)

Went to the fall festival. Got points for walking right past the cotton candy even though I could totally taste it just looking at it. Did get fried fish, but shared the smallish plate with 4 people so what I actually consumed wasn't a huge amount. Got Lemon Shakeup but it's not like I go to the festival everyday. Got a baked potato and chose the fat free sour cream and couldn't even tell the difference. Walked...a lot, and had a great time.


I love how you weigh differently 1000's of times each day.

This morning I weighed and I already, just from sleeping, weighed two pounds less. Ha, haha.

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Because life isn't always about how big you are, I'm looking for a fun thing to do today with the kids.

Fall festival, of course, how wonderful!

There are so many things to do at fall festivals, corn mazes, mile high hay slides, petting zoos, hay rides. SO. Much. Fun.

Also, Kettle corn. Corn Dogs. Apple Pies. Apple Butter. Carmel apple. Oh be still my sweet tooth!

So - much - temptation.

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I'll let myself have something. Otherwise life just might not be worth living.

In the beginning

I was really fat. Hopefully in a few months this will just melt away to nothing.




















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